Hi- I’m back!
I didn’t intend to take a long break from publishing posts here, but I did and I only recently realized that it wasn’t because I was “being lazy” or “still getting caught up” instead, it was because I truly needed a break.
I shared a lot less online these past seven months. I received many messages asking if I was going through a form of PPD or warning me that I should check into it.
I realized pretty quickly after we adopted Goldie that I wasn’t feeling like myself. All along, I was pretty sure that I just needed some extra time/rest and that everything was going to be ok. I did begin seeing a therapist regularly and I can already see several ways it’s making me a healthier person.
Several times over the past few months I’ve felt the pull to “catch up” here (I know I still have not posted Marigold’s adoption story- and yes, it is coming). But each time I did I realized I just was not ready to re-commit. I eventually realized that I was living in the survival zone and that I needed to just give myself permission to stay there as long as I needed to. I was being the best mom I could, and getting my work done. At the end of the day, after those two things I had nothing left. Over the past seven months there are so many strings I left untied- and I am just now accepting that.
Eventually, enough time went by and I started to wake up with more energy and bandwidth. And seven months later I think I’m feeling 100% again. 🙂
I’ll be back soon with Marigold’s adoption story, photos and videos from China and some more little life updates.
2020 is feeling pretty great over here. I hope it is for you too!
ps. If you’ve noticed my site is looking broken, it should be fixed this weekend!! 🙂